Dance on my Grave, like many of Aidan Chamber’s young adult novels, is about the reconstruction of a self. It is a novel that takes on complex and difficult issues, and, through gaps and ambiguity, allows readers to be active in constructing the meaning of the text. As a postmodern novel, it is also self-conscious about its role in shaping the selves of its audience. It is also the coming out narrative of  a gay protagonist, and this leads to the most complex, ambiguous and interesting aspect of the novel: it thematically highlights the construction of a postmodern subject; however, almost every structural element in the novel that renders it postmodern -  the self-consciousness, gaps, revisions - is connected precisely to the difficulty the narrator/protagonist has with coming out. Although internalized homophobia is never explicitly discussed, it comes out structurally in the narrator/ protagonist’s resistance to talking, resistance to writing, his corrections, retakes, coded language, silences and narrative shifts. In many ways it is an anti-narrative, one resistant to its own narration, but the reasons for this resistance create a contradiction that threatens the novel’s plausibility. This is because despite the novel’s use of poststructural theories of performativity and audience to construct a subject, if we use “queer” to designate the postmodern gay subject, this novel evidences a profound ambivalence towards queer subjectivity; in fact, it is doubly ambivalent, because it is ambivalent both to homosexuality and to postmodern subjectivity. This, in turn, has significant implications with regard to the novel’s role in shaping an important audience for this novel: queer adolescents.